anna_domini | (no subject)

Here's an interesting thing that has just come into my mind: that in a way I'm living the most free life I'm able to create in a given situation. There is a huge BUT in this sentence: BUT I can do it only because I have people who deal with the system FOR me. My husband most of all.

But in all other parts of life I avoid the system as much as I can: I'm not going to any office and don't have any official job, I don't visit official hospitals and my son went there just a couple of times, I plan to educate my son outside official education system (for a few years at least), and he has never been to a kindergarden... So in many ways I am invisible for ... как здесь сказать "государство" в нашем бытовом понимании?... чтобы не повторять слово system?
And it gives me an illusion of being invincible.

Unfortunately I clearly understand that it cannot last forever. Someday one of us may get into an accident, or get seriously ill, or something. Someday my son will have to deal with military authorities. Someday the government may take away every property that gives us some independence from it. Or that crazy printer will produce some more crazy laws... And this tiny tender world of mine will be destroyed.

All the time I think about it (and I think about it a lot), I'm comforting myself with "then we'll evacuate to Israel, or find a way to emigrate to Finland", but mostly I just repeat this legendary phrase "I'll think about it tomorrow".

May tomorrow never come, please, god.